Public Life

2010-07-15T00:47:00.004+08:00

Thanks for being honest with me. Really appreciated.

I really wish that things will turn out the best for you. I really want you to be happy. I know i'm not noble or what-so-ever, but if i have you and you're not really happy at all, what's the point? Guess this is the love that i can really provide for you. I'll still be there for you whenever you needed someone to be there.

I really love you. You're the only one that i truly want grow old and be with, even though we have our differences. Simply cause you're special to me in every way, that's why i only want to be with you and no one else.

2010-07-07T00:18:00.003+08:00

I miss the good old times with you. I really hope that things can be better between us.

I'm sorry for the thing i've done.

2010-07-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I’m officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today
I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

All I do is lay around
Two ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

It official
You know that I’m missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missing you

2010-06-30T23:45:00.001+08:00

2010-06-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

Hold my hand and we will go somewhere only we know.

2010-06-28T23:33:00.002+08:00

Those other Saturdays' morning, lying in bed having pillow talks and just laughing. Miss them.

2010-06-28T01:27:00.003+08:00

There is no where to write. So i'm going to write it here.

He said he will wait for you forever when he was in a relationship like just months ago? And you said to me before that you're giving people around you, who cares for you a chance. And now you tell me not to wait?

Contradicting.

If you see this post and ticks you off. I just want to say, do get offended. It's what i've been wanting to tell you just now and though i've repeated these two points like time and time again. Some points you just can't get through you head. I have to be straightforward now and not hitting around the bush. Being Mr Nice is just not right for me now.

On the other hand, i'm still gonna be there. Just like how things use to be. Cause it's just too deep to let go just like that. You should know very well how i feel for you. But till the fortunate day comes for you.

Take care.

2010-06-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

Things that being said earlier on just kinda kill him slowly. But he won't just let go. Cause it will kills him even more to let go now.

2010-06-26T23:24:00.002+08:00

The way you're moving in your sleep, the way you look before you leap. The strange illusions that you keep, you don't know but i'm noticing.

2010-06-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

Lets get lost.

2010-06-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

Will you go tioman with me?

2010-06-23T18:23:00.002+08:00

2010-06-23T00:24:00.000+08:00

Needed.

2010-06-21T22:46:00.001+08:00

Just know that you're not in this alone. There's always a place in me you can call home.

2010-06-20T15:54:00.001+08:00

Touching down in a few hours time. Wish i could see you soon.

2010-06-19T21:03:00.002+08:00

2 more days. I can't wait for you to be back. So i can dance with you under the clear sky, with the moon and the stars shining romantically at us; glass of wine in our hands.

2010-06-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

3 more days. I'm still waiting for you to come back.

2010-06-17T22:21:00.001+08:00

4 more days. The feeling is still the same. You're the missing puzzle in my life.

2010-06-16T22:54:00.001+08:00

5 more days. You're dearly missed.

2010-06-15T11:04:00.002+08:00

6 more days but i already missing you like crazy.

2010-06-14T21:17:00.002+08:00

7 more days. I'm sorry. I can't help but missed you every minute of today.

2010-06-13T21:40:00.001+08:00

8 more days. I miss you already.

2010-06-12T11:42:00.001+08:00

9 long lonely days. I miss you.

2010-06-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

2010-06-09T23:04:00.003+08:00

Cause loving you is nothing but the truth. You're everything to me.

2010-06-07T00:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, life is all about..

2010-06-04T00:23:00.001+08:00

2010-06-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

2010-06-03T00:10:00.001+08:00

just to see you sleeping soundly like a child.

2010-05-30T22:10:00.001+08:00

Just with you.

2010-05-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

Everytime without fail, i would be in that girl shoes.

2010-05-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

2010-05-16T01:34:00.005+08:00

I want to be with you.

2010-05-15T02:03:00.001+08:00

2010-05-14T02:39:00.001+08:00

Please...

Cause the life i'm having now is so much meaningless.

2010-05-13T21:09:00.005+08:00

However, this is another thing i want to tell you; all along. Please believe me.

2010-05-13T20:34:00.005+08:00

Hope she understand that i didn't mean to hurt her in any way. Hurting her is the last thing i would want to do. But sometimes, she just make me feel i'm so out of her league. She makes me feel that i'm all so useless. I really don't know what to do.

2010-01-04T02:10:00.008+08:00

Just watched finish 海派甜心 episode 10. Part 6 is the part that really makes me really sad. It just brings me to that day, her birthday, just like the leading female actress'.

Why does she have to cry for him? Why does she can't forget him? Why does she have to cry out his name? I don't know why but it just hurts me. It just reminds me that night. WHY? Why i can't just forget that night?

"Even though the whole world rejects, i still want to be with you."

2009-11-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

Walk in his shoes and maybe, just maybe, you'll know the pain he's going through.

But first, what size you wear?

2009-11-23T00:56:00.002+08:00

He sometimes really wish to sit there and let the lights tell him what to do. Let him tear and sober through the night away.

2009-11-19T23:26:00.003+08:00

This is all he needs. And it's the thing that others can misuse on him to find out all one wants to know.

2009-11-17T00:31:00.002+08:00

Dancing is my remedy.

2009-11-10T01:05:00.002+08:00

He seems to doesn't care if it's a misunderstanding that he's having in his confused mine right now, but the feeling of letting go is getting stronger each day. However, the thought of letting her go, the pain in him is craving him deeper and deeper.

He wants or needs someone to talk to, he could trust no one.

Tell her straight, things will get worst after that. Or might not even change.

Help

2009-11-09T11:54:00.001+08:00

Why is the one who cares the most always do the waiting?

Always the one who worried for the other who care the least?

Waiting......

2009-11-07T20:55:00.003+08:00

Thoughts have been filled up, too much of it.

2009-11-04T16:56:00.002+08:00

One day, he will just walk away.

2009-11-03T11:50:00.000+08:00

Some said it's not so bad, some said just go.

Should i go or just leave it?

2009-10-31T15:52:00.004+08:00

Love her more, understand her less. Cause in the end, he won't understand her.
Understand him more, love him lesser. Understand him will eventually, in a way, love him.

Looking at it again, i've decided that i'm not going out till it's done. Or maybe so.

2009-10-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

After looking my face in the mirror, i just want to cry.

2009-09-01T07:56:00.009+08:00

HAPPY ONE YEAR OF FRIENDSHIP!

I'm really happy to know you as a friend for one year plus. Thanks for always being there for me when i needed some love and care. You've been my part-time teacher and a best friend! I really do wonder at times what will my life be, without you appearing in my life. Well, if there's a "Best Friend of the Year" award, i'll definitely present it to you. There are so many things that i want to say to you but i'll just keep it short. Cheers to friendship and growing old together like you said!

Happy Friendship Day once again, Janice the Elmo.

2009-08-25T17:27:00.000+08:00

Love is never any better than the lover.

2009-08-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

I just have this bad feeling. I don't want to say it out yet. Cause i've sort of been through it and know the answer to it. But i don't want to hurt myself; again. Like i told her before, i don't mind being silly falling in love with her, just like the way it is now.

But recently, that feeling is lost. What happen? I don't want this to happen cause i DO really fall for her. Am i just tired? Or just like what Alina told me, you're just lost? Oh well. Hope for the best!

Anyway, she's going off to Perth soon for a holiday. have fun girl! I'll every single day, without fail, post a short entry how much i miss you! =)

And lastly, i've decided to set a day for us. 1st of September! It will be a day when we know each other for about a year? =) People will be asking why 1st of September. Hmm... To be honest, cause i can't remember that actual date that i first know her. So since September is just around the corner, i'll just simply set that date!

Cheers

2009-08-12T17:35:00.001+08:00

Isn't love ageless?

2009-08-09T02:31:00.000+08:00

I suddenly have this thought. What will my life without her? I suddenly think of it, i felt scared. I don't know why. OHHHHHH!

I love you Janice! =)

2009-08-08T15:18:00.000+08:00

在一起叫梦, 分开了叫痛, 是不是说没有做完的梦最痛 ?

Why she says she've given up on me?

I've waited by her side from the day i love her. I know i'm Po Ma, but i just didn't meant to. Do you know how much i want to tell you i really love you and wanted so much to be with you? I'm crazy over you! There isn't a day i stop thinking about you. At every moment, i want you to know how much i love you. Maybe i showed it at a wrong way? At a silly way? At a very Po Ma way? Beacause i felt a little insecure everytime you talk about how other guys have been nice to you. Always after hearing that, i've been asking myself, "Why can't i be that person? Why can't i be the person who can give her the happiness that she wants?"

i really don't want to blow things up. Cause i got a feeling that when she sees this post, our distance will be further and further. I really don't want that to happen. I don't want to see history repeat itself again and again. I don't want to go back to the emo-self again. I want to be with her, smiling everyday. It might sound selfish. But i want her so much; no matter what.

I really love you alot Janice the Elmo.

2009-08-08T03:54:00.000+08:00

Time check now is like freaking 350am! And i'm still awake! Why is that so? Is there something in my mind that i want to speak up but i can't? If so? Why? cause i scared that if i voice out, i'll hurt someone and might even lose that person?

How i wish i can just tell someone. And i understand what's the meaning of a particular sentence that someone told me off once. The pain that's in that sentence.

Here's a shout out to Alina Ng, my secondary school friend. Well, she didn't did anything special. All she did was she will do her best to talk to me everyday. Ask about how are things going on with me and her. About my daily stuff. I did the same too. I'll also vent my angry to her. (I'm so sorry Alina.) She also wishes us all the best. Well, Alina, if by any chance you saw this post, i also wishes you all the best with you and your man. I seriously hope that you two can be long lasting till you two get married. And i'll be there when you are getting married! Thanks for being there for me when i'm down. And you know i'll be there for you when you're down too!

2009-07-27T23:54:00.002+08:00

i just love the time we spend together. And i love the things we do together, like introduce songs to each other.

I really love her, no matter what is blocking infront of me, all i want now is to see her smile everyday! I'll do my best to make her happy and hear her laugh.

2009-07-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

Finally dance at Dblo. Not shy anymore! Had a GREAT night at the dancefloor. Realised that i'm abit better C-Walker than most of the people there. So fun! Well, there are things that i want to write it here. But i think i'll just leave it the way it is. Although it hurts me alot, but i'll just swallow it and hush. All i want was her to be happy.

Went home today, talked to Ryker, and suddenly, i got emotional. Tears just rolled down my cheek. I so want to cry after that but i couldn't. Then just now at about 1220, i wanted to cry again. But i think this time i hold back.

I don't want anything to change after she has read this post. I also can't believe that i told T to be strong. We are sort of "rival" and i told him to be strong? And later i was told to stand back. Guess i don't know how to fight for what i want yet.

I Love Her, i really do. I don't care about her past.

Peace

2009-06-27T23:59:00.003+08:00

Went to Double O and Dragonfly yesterday. I really had fun! At the later part of clubbing at Dblo, as the rest of the gang were at the dance floor, i was at the table, too shy to go and dance. So there came this pair of india ladies, looking for their friend. So one of them asked for the empty sit. I offered to them. So she start asking me for my name and why i'm not drink or even dancing.

Not too long, her boyfriend came over. So i offered the other empty sit to that the other friend. Then we started to chat for not long, her friend came. Then at first he was like abit unfriendly, asked me, "Do you know who she is?" I shook my head. Then he said, " Don't worry, she's single." I was like, " You don't have to tell me that actually." Then they went off dancing.

At the ending part before the club close, they came back, asking me to help them take a photo. 2 in fact. Then to my surprise, one of the lady ask me if she could take a picture with me. So i agreed, since it's like no harm.

Then i met up with the rest. All of them say is still early and not high enough. Some suggested to go Dragonfly, so we went. But before that, Janice dared or something like that, asked James aka Xiao Nu to kiss me. WA! Without a second word, he kissed me. FUCKING GIVE ME THE GOOSEBUMP!

While on the way to the car, Janice said to me that Don will be over there. My heart just sank. She said to me that she'll be looking for him just for awhile. The pain just hurts further. Then she asked me this in the car,

" Do you mind me looking for him?"
" No"
" Are you sad that i look for him?"
" No"

When we reached, i just felt so down. She still ask me to wait outside for her, while we ran to find him. When i went it, it was really a super eye-opener! Nice sound system, great interior design too. If it's meant for younger generation, i think it will be a damn fun place to chill!

She came back that time, she was already down. Is all written on her face. I tried to console her.
Then Don came over. I was abit boiled to see him. I was trying to eavesdrop, but i realised that it's very rude, so i just leave them alone. But i look at Jan, she's like all sad.

Then Don walked off. She stood alone by herself. I can sense that she wanted to cry. I just looked at her at a distance to give her the space she needs. Some what, Don ask her to leave with him. But Janice didn't. Don can still tell her to F off! What a jerk! There were a few times that when she's off looking for him, the corner of my eyes caught image of shadow, i looked at that direction, hoping that it was her that i saw, but sadly, no. Till some times, then she appear infront of my eyes, sad and down.

After that, send drunk James home. Heard from Janice that his wife damn firece! Send her home.

Woke up in the morning, we start to joke. She can totally bully me, and is like self entertaine to herself. Went back hime at 2.30pm.

Well, i seen and enjoyed myself. Thanks Janice.

2009-06-20T18:56:00.002+08:00

I'm really down now. After hearing what happen to her, i felt useless, guilty, and blur. Useless is cause i can't be there for her. Guilty is because i made her angry for what i said to her that evening. Blur, maybe is just blank.

I really don't know what to do. All i can think of is be strong with her, and not emo over it. Help her in anyway i can. Be there, maybe not in person, for her.

Cause, i just simply love Elmo.

2009-06-06T21:05:00.004+08:00

I know that this blog is like dead. Cause i really don't have much to write. I might even put this blog under construction, make it a really totally NO EMO blog, for all different readers to read. Maybe you guys have to wait till i get my new camera.

The Canon EOS 50D!

Till then, i don't think i'll update anything.

Well, maybe i'll just update a little here. I'm moving on well. I'm still alive, but soon, i'll just die. Just sometimes, i don't like my life. So what i'm born with a GOLDEN spoon in my mouth. Money can't buy happiness i'm looking for. So maybe i'm not that LUCKY like what everyone is telling me all this while.

2009-05-16T14:17:00.002+08:00

Today i'm fucking pissed off. The next duty shift guys came like an hour and a half late! Made me got home late. Didn't have enough rest either.

She added me on facebook. I was shocked. Looked at her profile, realised that she's engaged. I was blurred at that time but i've already made my mental preparation before. My feelings told me before that it's obvious that she doesn't like me anymore. So now, i've to move on.

I took my posting yesterday, and i'm posted to 9 Div HQ. Have to report on Wednesday morning. Heard it's a stay out vocation. So i guess it will be a 8-5 job? Hope the very best of me.

I'm moving on; TRYING very hard again.

2009-05-03T05:04:00.001+08:00

Went to Marcau Cafe with cousin to chill. His forum friends were there. I had a fun time!

Not sleeping tonight. Have to be out of house like 7am to do my guard duty later.

Watching video!

2009-05-02T14:09:00.002+08:00

I've watch this movie for three times. It's a cute, lovely movie. At some part of the movie, i was like in the movie. Maybe i want that type of friends and live. Maybe just for a night.

She said: " The world is broken into pieces and it's everybody's job to find them and put them back together again."
He said: " Well, maybe we were the pieces. Maybe we are not suppose to find the pieces, maybe we are the pieces."

I've tried to stay happy for the past one week. And i'm happy. But yesterday, i just felt down again. Is it really that difficult to stay happy?

2009-04-28T00:49:00.002+08:00

Attended Gerald's birthday chalet over at Pasir Ris. I went there early to help out. The rest of the secondary school friends start coming at about 7pm. I really did some catching up with most of them. Most of the guys have graduate and waiting for army. Good luck to them! Shared my experience with them. Let them have some mental prepare. All my friends were shocked that i've backbone fracture. =X

Went home at about 11plus.

Today, went to hospital to do my physio. I felt asleep while i was with the machine. Damn sleepy! Did some back-strenghtening excersice for about an hour and went back to mom's shop to help out. Met some of the old customers. All were super shock to see me there! Made me so happy cause at least i know that no one have forgotten about me.

Mom let me off early so that i can play basketball back home. But after taking my back, i went to find 'sister' instead. Is actually a habit for me whenever i'm near her working place. Plus, it's just behind my mom's working place. Went to greet her. I never fail to suprise her! So we started talking. She asked me how's everything and i just said so-so. This sister of mine can seriously read me like a damn story book! She asked, " Just so-so?" I just said yeah. I don't know where to start. I want to tell her i'm not okay acutally. But i just don't know how. So after much questioning from her, i just spill everything out.

I told her what i'm curious about and she explained her point of view. Made me understand more. She also advise me to know more ladies first. Understand ladies. Then get into a relationship. And she continue from there. Showed me an article about friendship is very important. So now, i'll treasure my friends and my family members! Guess that they are all i've got. Thanks sister!

Guess i should start learning how to understand ladies. Any teacher?

2009-04-24T23:50:00.002+08:00

Austin went to Thailand for his training, and soon, he's going to POP again. As for Alex, he's going to brunei for his training too.

Have the feeling that people around me are leaving me; one by one. History is repeating itself again. I really hate this feeling. But i guess i can't do anything about it?

Had fun yesterday night. Wilson, Chun Gee, Mah and me went round to different places for our nights out. First we went to Bugis to get my NUM sandals. Then we went to Mac to grab a small bite. Went to Topman to look for clothes later. Couldn't find a nice pair for straight-cut pants for myself. Actually, there's one. But i don't like the part which is suppose to be zip but it's buttons. It'll be like so difficult to pee when you are on high tide! Brought Mah to the new shopping mall at Bugis. It's the second time i went there. Nothing much either. Arcade was big and the screen is damn nice! Timbre was the next stop. Just to have a look. Located opposite SMU.

Next stop, went to Haji Lane to find Jacky's shop. Sad to say, their shop closed early when we went there. Guess i'll drop by some other day then; earlier next time. Then we walked our way to Clerk Quey. Since it's thursday night, TONS of people over there! Lots of Ang MOs i say. Then Mah suddenly said he got craving for beer. So he went to the nearest 7-11 and bought a can of Heineken. He knows that i didn't drink before, so he offer me a mouth. I was scared, cause i thought it will be bitter, so i asked him to drink first. Plus he bought it, so of course he must drink first. Then he passed to me. I still not prepared, so asked him to drink again. Then later, i just have a mouthfull. To my suprised, it's not that bad actually. Just abit dry. Then the beer was shared among the 4 of us.

Then it was back to camp. On the way back in the train, we keep talking about what happen just now. About the different people we met. Then decided where to go the next time!

FUN!

it's about a moth plus since i last saw you. now, i'm like so close of giving up. so close of saying to you, "Thnks Fr Th Mmrs". it's really starting to kill me inside. all i want is to be smile the way when i'm with you. today after seeing a chinnnnnna couples infront of me while i'm listening to my ipod on my traing home, i suddenly have the feeling that i'm blessed that i'm still single. should it be that way? help me to understand more. guess that when you really give me the answer that time, i'll sad either. is it me that can't read between the lines?

2009-04-19T13:55:00.003+08:00

Artist: Wonder Girls
Title: Nobody

This is ONE of the Korean songs that i enjoy. Damn catchy. The MV is funny and they dance, damn they are HOT!

Great Job girls!

HOT!

Bio:
Yubin(21), Ye Eun(20), Sunye(20), Sun Mi(17), Sohee(17). *Names not as followed to the photo.

2009-04-18T00:25:00.001+08:00

Just came back from Jemie's birthday party. Actually not really a party either, gathering perhaps? It's been a few years since i last met her. Went over to England to have a scholarship for her music. So this time she came back for a short holiday. Going back on the 2nd of May. It's a 9 year friendship actually. How time flies~

Anyway, i guess i'm happier now. At least i've done what i want to do or what i want to give to her. Is like a goal, so at least complete it.

Anyway, going off to sleep now. Have guard duty later on. FULL DAY! Gosh.

2009-04-10T02:15:00.005+08:00

Today went to Tampines Mall 1 and look for the new shop in Singapore, Uniqol. However, it's damn packed. Have to queue up to enter the shop. The queue turned into the toilet pathway! That's how long it is. Maybe today is the first official day for opening. So i shop at Topman instead. Bought a pair of shoes. Overall view about TM1 is good. Got shops that have in town. However, the only thing that it doesn't have is a theater!

Next, watch Fast and Furious 4 at TM. It's a nice show as i've waiting for it since the day i got news about this show. Nice cars and of course sexy, hot ladies dancing infront of those cars! Did i tell you that Jordana Brewster is damn hot in that movie? oh mama!

Fast & Furious 4!

The new shoe i bought!

2009-04-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

Guess this time he's out of his wits. He really don't know what to do. Feeling so helpless. Should he just give up or wait. Wait for the day that she'll really talk to him once more.

Seems like history is repeating again and again for him, time over time. For the past few days, he kept asking if this is just a crush? He did text her but just no reply from her. He scared that all his messages will bother her not not like giving her space. But can't she just tell him. ANYTHING will do. Even if she doesn't want to date him, just tell him. At least he can move on. She said she's busy, can't just spare a little portion of her time for him? Guess he's asking too much.

Life is just so painful to live in. He really needs help from any of the readers this time.

I don't know why I miss you so much,
I don't know why I still feel your touch.
You left me feeling high and dry,
With nothing but the question why.

I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection.

If you call me today,
I'll say that I'm fine.
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice,
It's just a lie.

Does my love for you is deep and meaningless?
Am i too much?

2009-04-06T12:12:00.002+08:00

Just got back from the hospital for my physio at AH. Took a bus and accidentally saw this dope guy texting his girl this, " Baby, you are so irresponsible. You make me want you so much." And he sent. This sentence alone took him like 2 mins to text it out? After that, i was like "WHAT THE FUCK? Broad daylight and he sounds so chessy. Get a room dude!"

He was wearing a Starbucks polo and a skinny black pants with earring on each of his ears. He wear glasses, frameless. Fashion police will sure to arrest that SOAB!

2009-04-05T02:21:00.002+08:00

Love Facebook more and more. i can express whatever i want, when i want.

Don't have to blog out every time i got something to express out.

2009-04-03T21:49:00.010+08:00

Came across this old song. Felt that maybe that's what i want to put across. Maybe i'm just emo.

Artist: Michelle Branch
Title: Goodbye to you

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the star fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

It just hurts so much.

Counting the days that passed him by; dreadfully.

2009-03-29T16:32:00.003+08:00

Watched 6 Dvds in a row yesterday while i was on duty! 3 was American Pie!

Have been an American Pie fan for sometime. Those movies just don't fail to entertain me. After watching, i felt so much better now. All those hard laugh to go with. So wanting to be a Stiffler! WOO! Too bad i can't drink as good as him.

Now is raining cats and dogs. Shitty weather. Bored again. Musics are accompanying me. Have to book in tonight before Cinderella drops her glass shoes.

Later.

Love life, get paid and then get laid

1 full week

2009-03-26T00:34:00.003+08:00

Took off today. Staying at home and will visit the hospital on friday.

Took off and i'm down here bored and moody!WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING TO ME ??? It's been a few days and i'm still down here moody! GOSH!

I wrote a story sometime ago. Like to share.

Does anyone knows that he's lonely? Needs someone to talk to every night? Need someone to shower some love on him?

Well, no one knows. The few people whom really knows how he really feel had betray him. It's a story that he didn't wish to happen in his life, at all. A story that can be often seen in a television drama series.

He felt in love with this girl. They started to chat and soon fell in love. He proudly showed her to his best friends. Not for long, all of them get to know each other. All of them dated each other out to have dinner and outings. Soon these happy moments just turned sour and bitter.

One of his friends, B, had some feelings for her too. Z, whom is also a best friend, knew about it. So he decided to do something, something that made too many things changed. After getting to know that he had broken up with her due to his mother's strong disaprove, Z confessed to her sometime later. However, he did not succed. So Z posted and entry on his blog. He read the entry and felt very hurt cause he still have feelings for her.

At that point of time, he hated Z so much that he ignored his MSNs and SMSes. B was the one whom always try to talk through him, making him forget about the past and move on.

But soon, the cat was let out of the bag. One day, Z came down personally to find him. Explaining everything clearly to him. It was all along B who has feelings for her. What Z was doing is trying to see or test who will make their first move. To his suprise, B and him did not make any move. They just left things hanging. So Z played further, letting both fools know that he had "feelings" for her.

A trio whom were once best friends just seperated because of this. They totally lost contact. Maybe he's still mad about the whole thing. Maybe he just feel that it's unforgiving. All these things just hurt him so badly, so deep.

Some of my friends read the story and they love it. What about you? Comments?

Things don't seems to go well between the two.

2009-03-23T21:44:00.001+08:00

SO MOODY TODAY

Is she an addiction?

2009-03-14T01:52:00.003+08:00

Watched a movie with her on the Thursday night. That was the second night that i saw in a row for a week. That was one of my happiest moment.

It's a nice movie with nice effects and cool characters! 4/5 =)

Oh oh.. Finally i get to take photo with her! ^^v

Things has turn complicated; hasn't it?

2009-03-07T17:26:00.002+08:00

Actually, there are times that i hate to book out. Well, most of the time in fact. Cause i'm always staying at home. Doing nothing! Want to go out, can't find anyone to go out with. Isn't that shitty? Maybe i should just stay in camp, have nights out instead of book out. Worst is that when i took MRT back home yesterday, this couple kissed infront of my naked eye! Are they trying to make me envy or jealous?

Anyway, i've OOC-ed. Not due to any fake injury or anything. This time it's real. BACKBONE FRACTURE! How the fuck can this happen to me? Does this mean that i've to cut down on alot of the things that i like to do? Example, basketball, crip walking and even shopping? Gosh! =(

Well, today is also another example of a shitty weekend. BORING! Damn

Can two different world be as one?
Can seagull and fish fall in love?
Oh well.....

2009-03-01T17:04:00.003+08:00

Another random songs that i found.

Artist: Miley Cyrus
Title: 7 Things

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you!
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your game, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology

When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you!
You're vain, your game, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do ohhh
(Ooh oooh ooh oooh ooh oooh ooh ooh)

Maybe now you can write 7 things you like or don't like about a person. =)

2009-02-22T09:18:00.000+08:00

Just finished my first week in ASLC. Things still going not that bad, just that the company is not really organised, wasting other's time.

First two days is so boring. Keep thinking of me getting OOC. Cause i just don't like the place i'm in. But the day after, things just changed! I turned so high that i'm so enthu in doing whatever i've to do for that day.

Had my GPMG live firing. IS DAMN FUN! It was about 2 plus that we wrap up everything and ended back to camp. The worst thing was we have to wake up at 4.45am to go for our demo! But evrything is all worth.

I just don't like staying at home more and more as the week goes by. Maybe i'll just decide to stay in camp.

He just wished to be loved like every other; couple.

2009-02-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, the distance between him and her is like so far away.
Sometimes, they just seems so difficult to communicate.
Sometimes, he just have the feeling that they are not meant to be together.
Sometimes, he felt that whatever he did is just wrong.
Sometimes, he just doesn't want to speak up his mind.

It's all about the "sometimes", that made him felt "all the time".

Why does he have to feel this way?

2009-02-14T20:46:00.001+08:00

Today finally pop-ed from BSLC.....

BUT I GOT INTO CHARLIE ASLC!!!!

This is where my life is going to be shitty and crappy!

2009-02-08T15:23:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY LIFE!

That simple! F*CK OFF!

2009-02-01T00:32:00.002+08:00

Do you readers think these are true? How true can these be?

31 Ways To Make A Girl Happy

1. Don't hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.

2. Hold her hand at any moment... Even if its just for a second.

3. Hug her from behind.

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up.

5. Wrestle with her.

6. Don't go hang out with your ex when she's not with you, you might not realize how badly it hurts her.

7. If you're talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and

hug her and kiss her.... Let her know she's yours and they aren't.

8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi".. Not just at night after you've already been out with other girls.

9. Introduce her to your friends... As your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

11. Pick her up.

12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it.

13. Make her laugh, if you can make her laugh, you can make her do

anything.

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16. If you care about her, then tell her.

17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal (she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she'll treasure it forever), and one of his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed).

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile.

20. Hang out with her on weekends.

21. Kiss her in the rain.

22. Kiss her just for the heck of it.

23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if

its simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. It means all the world to HER. It's the thought that counts.

25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)

26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don't necessarily have to have hour-long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.

27. Give her what she wants.

28. Recognize the small things... They usually means the most.

29. Tell her she's beautiful, she needs to know her striving is working.

30. Hang out with her whenever you are free and you should be free to hang

with your girlfriend all the time.

31. If u care about her... SHOW her!

Well, as for me, there are some points that i don't know if i should agree with. Any comments?

2009-01-25T08:00:00.003+08:00

It's the year of the..

so i wish every reader, a Happy Chinese New Year!

GONG XI FAI CAI ! May all get LOTS & LOTS OF ANG PAO!

2009-01-18T20:30:00.004+08:00

I so want to watch this movie!!! I can't wait anymore!!!!

2009-01-04T01:45:00.003+08:00

Today i don't really feel that happy at all. So i wrote my the other post over "there".

Just so shitty. Seems like 2009 will be FUCK'D up year for me AGAIN!

2008-12-25T11:23:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2008-12-19T03:12:00.005+08:00

Artist: Taylor Swift
Title: Love Story

We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello;

Little did I know
That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me; they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh.

I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think-"

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet. you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh, oh.

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you...

PS: How i wish someone could sing this song to me. =)

2008-12-17T12:46:00.002+08:00

Watched

with "her" yesterday night!

2008-12-14T01:02:00.001+08:00

Well, actually i'm not a person who like night. Well, maybe for me, i always have to say goodbye to my friends that i'm hanging out with everytime. I don't really like to say goodbye to my friends. Night is also the time that made me feel very lonely at night. Sucky feeling.

That's why i don't really like night time. But one of the thing that i like about night time is that, in a few hours, it will be day again! =)

2008-12-11T15:34:00.001+08:00

Hello! Welcome to this site. Well, in this blog, i'll just blog anything under the sun. So if you readers feel like expressing your thoughts about the post(s), PLEASE feel free to write them in the chatboard.

*PS, don't think as if you know me. Cause i'm not who you think i'm. =)

Anyway, i've just finish my BMTC life. So that makes me a private now. Well, actually life as a recruit is not as bad as what MOST people think. For me, life in BMTC is very fun! Firstly, i made TONS of friends, then i learn how to handle a weapon and grenade. Follow by building a basha and learn how to come out with ideas for any situation when one is shagged! Then the day that most recruits will look forward too. Passing Out Parade, also know as POP. It will be a memoriable day for every BOY that has turned to MAN.

Another event that i attended recently was the Ben&Jerry Chunk Fest. I was really looking forward to this event, but sad to say is that weather was not really on our side. Met up with my friends before going and later realised that it was actually drizzling! Ok, even though it drizzle, there are still TONS and TONS of prople there, and people are still coming in! But the group of us can't take the humidity! So we decided to chill out at another place instead.

Public Life

在一起叫梦, 分开了叫痛, 是不是说 没有做完的梦最痛 ?

在一起叫梦, 分开了叫痛, 是不是说没有做完的梦最痛 ?